So I would say that I've been running on fumes for quite awhile as of late. Never being able to get to bed before 11 or 12 most nights, eating horribly, and just seemingly in a daze most days. When I get in a rut I find it very hard to find that jump start that will kick me back into some normalcy. I was hoping this weekend away, up to Fishing Creek (TWF's family cabin in the middle of nowhere Pennsylvania.... about 9 hours away.... yes, we drove), would be my ticket to snap back into it. But I think a night of drinking (celebrating Pav's going away), and a 9 hour car ride in the backseat wrecked me before the weekend even started. I had such a low headache, in my neck, and I couldn't get rid of it for the life of me. The beds were old, I didn't have my pillow, we all sleep in one room and I'm an infamous light sleeper and let me tell you what... BOYS SNORE. We get back late Monday night, I realize once I'm in bed I have to finish my homework for class the next day, have a LONG day, staff meeting and all, at school, then drive to class in pouring down rain. I walk into class and for some reason 2 of my classmates were talking about me so I walk in and they literally stop talking. It was nothing bad, just chitchatting and I came up for some reason. But they were like we were just talking about you! How are you?! How was your trip?!. And before I could even respond, I felt my eyes tearing up. WTF!! I was fine, I'm fine, we're all fine. But the look on Jo and A's face just wrecked me. (and NO, it's NOT that time of the month). Jo, who could be one of the sweetest ladies and would help everyone do anything, just stands up, walks over, and gives me a big hug. I gave a few big sobs, held onto the hug, and realized how badly I needed that. Someone, without prompting, no obligation, no nothing, simply just thinking about me and asking how I am and then giving me a hug. It just hit me big time. I was no longer worried about our midterm, the homework that I had thrown together at 11pm the night before, the drive back in the rain, my lack of a summer job, I just needed a hug. I'm tearing up now just thinking about it! Some that know me say I can be melodramatic, but I guess that's just me. And to know, that someone, Jo, who has known me for only a few short months on a very limited basis, didn't judge, and just hugged and I didn't feel stupid or silly for just letting it out. Perhaps it's time to go to bed super early for a few nights, but I can't tell you how much I didn't know I needed that hug last night.
So on that note, I'm waiting for the kids to start walking in and start our Wednesday. I'm helping out with some testing again this week. Poor kids already took the damn EOG's, but these are makeups. UGH.. But only 11 more days of school left. I can not believe it.
ANYONE IN RALEIGH HAVE A FANTASTIC (OR EVEN JUST OK) SUMMER JOB FOR ME?!?!
